the past the future and now

i was born with a spiky, lush black hair.


i was a plump infant and looked like a baby boy.


i was a nightmare as a toddler. i slept in the morning till the afternoon,never sleep during the night, and to make it worse, pulled everyone's hair when they're sound asleep. i ate each meal for two hours, and wouldn't touch anything that resembled porridge.


i was four years old, still a nightmare. i was really cunning and obnoxious. i tied my sitter's hand on the handle and locked up my house maids in their room. mom tried everything, from yelling to locking me up in the garage, but to no avail. *sigh*


i was six years old, and attended first grade. i was so proud that time. mom didn't have to send me and i didn't cried, but i made new friends.


during my childhood my parents always want me to be a pianist, and i thought that is what i wanted to be. But I was wrong.


then i entered my terrible pre-teen years. i was taller and fatter than everyone else, and i was very insecure and shy. 


when i turned eleven, i was starting to have a crush on a few boys.


i get into middle school, i was told to speak in front of the class and for the very first time, i enjoyed it. then i became more confident, and joined competitions and events at school. 3 years of middle school were very memorable. i finally realized what i wanted to be and find out who i am. i started to rise, i'm growing up, i've become a better version of myself.


now, i'm typing a blog post. tomorrow is the first day of high school. and i hope, i can shine more, i can improve, i can find and know myself better, i can find my true friends, i can work hard to make my ambition come true, and i can smile someday, look back and say, "i did it" but the most important is that i can get taller T.T yes i was taller than my friends a few years back, but now, yeah, things changed.