and my teachers won't stop inspiring me. i was urged to deliver a farewell speech today, and i was so blank i didn't know what to say. i didn't push myself hard enough, all i can think is i don't know what to say, i'm sad to leave. that's all. then after i delivered what i can, my principle said something that will change my life afterwards. he asked us to be ourselves, not just following other people, and that everyone is not the same, you can't find another you. you are special. then i realized, i did have a lot of things to say, i just didn't give myself a chance. i am different. i'm not the same like my other friends, and that their speech can't reflect what i really thought inside. so thank you for helping me realize that.
then what my former 8th grade teacher said. i don't have to be this sad, i still live in this town, i still can visit my beloved school all the time, everytime i want, i'll be welcomed with open arms. it's true. it's not goodbye yet. it's just up to me. if i want to make it as a goodbye, than it is, we wouldn't meet again, but if i really love my school, the teachers, and my friends, i can still see them, it's really just up to me. she also told to use our whole potential as a human being, and not just for ourselves, but we have to share it with every person in this world. it gave me positive outlook and make me come with a new motto for my life, it's my life. i only live once. i decide what's best for my life. i make or break my life, decisions are all in me.
and i'm so glad i finally realized how great my mom is. all this time it's just me. she really helped me come up with all this new thoughts and correct my way of thinking.
turns out, things are not what you thought they're supposed to be. thoughts make you hesitate, they make you doubt, they even can make you feel devastated, like you're not worth living anymore. but in the end, who control your thoughts? where did they all begin? the answer is: yourself. so it's not other people who is making you sad, or stressed, but it's up to you. whether you want to dwell with it or not.
today is very memorable. and i'm very, very grateful that i still have those people in my life.
as usual, photo credits goes to little brother :* today i insisted on giving him a photoshoot but he was adamant, kept saying "noooooooo" :P
